No.267
>>264Eh. That's generally good advice especially for noobs but if you're not afraid of overthinking things it can still help you out even when you're big sad.
Acid doesn't change your mood it just sort of enhances the mood you already have and overstimulates your brain at the same time
If you realize that being sad is not necessarily a bad thing it can still help you be sad in a productive way
No.269
>>267ah alright, that makes sense yeah. i don't do very many drugs outside of nicotine and the occasional blunt. lost one of my friends to heroin a long time ago so i tend to stay away from anything that isn't mild.
>>268now you understand the history of my people a little better, captain. perhaps now we can see each other as equals?
No.271
>>269I'm really sorry to hear that man. I definitely know how that feels, it's a bit unreal to go through
And yeah generally speaking I advise everyone to stay away from this kind of shit whenever possible
It's not exactly a sustainable lifestyle but we all gotta do what we gotta do to keep going
No.275
>>265uh i haven't gone to a therapist still,, i am not doing anything lately because of the corona, but my mood been getting better on average, are you doing anything to combat the big sad?
No.280
I haven't been outside beyond my porch in three weeks, I'm going insane guys fuck
No.281
>>275Not really. I made a bit of a conscious choice not to fix it, it's a long story. I'm glad to hear you're doing better fren. Tea rapists may help but ofcourse they'll only help if you want them to help otherwise it's just a waste of money. How bad is the corona lockdown over there? Here everything still looks almost normal except slightly less people on the streets and many shops closed
>>280Welcome to the internet where your friends are for free and here forever
Why don't you just go for a walk at least? If you're young and healthy the lockdown is not to keep you safe it's to keep others safe from you
No.282
>>281Because I live with someone who's immunocompromised. So I have to be just as worried about getting sick.
No.283
>>282Oh yeah. Damn that sucks man but you're doing the right thing.
Don't you need groceries at some point though? You gotta go out for *something* eventually, I think the lockdown is gonna last quite a while
No.285
>>283getting them delivered.
No.289
>>271it happened many years ago so im over it now, no need to be sympathetic my friend. it's just nice to have a good conversation with you instead of occasionally getting a reply on r/banter.
>generally speaking I advice everyone to stay away from this kind of shit whenever possibleyeah, but in moderation they can be fine. it's when you're doing them all the time that there's an issue, you know?
No.292
>>281there is acceptance and there is giving up, i really hope you went with the former. it's gonna be a long time before i go to a therapist, tryna do what i can on my own for now. corona shit got us on a lockdown from 6pm to 6 am and all shops closed besides food markets and health centers >.>
No.293
>>292lol it's neither acceptance nor giving up, it's more of a going down fighting kind of thing
I figured out a while ago what will make me happy and I also understood that I'll never be able to reach it
so I'm just gonna spend my remaining years in a slow suicide trying to reach it anyways
excuse me for my zoomer speak but unironically yolo
No.294
>>293But can you see a life where you don't put all your happiness on that thing? you tried to even just think about that possibility? it hurts me to see you in a state like that
No.295
>>294Oh yeah lol I've been trying in fact I'm even still on a path where I could drop everything right now and just choose to do the whole normal family thing
The problem is as hard as I try to like that lifestyle it just brings me absolutely no enjoyment
I really really like other people in general but I tend to get frustrated and annoying to live with if I'm around the same people for a long period of time
No.296
>>295Fuck I know that feel. I'm dreading when my gf and I move in together, I worry I'll be the same.
No.297
>>296Hahahah. Quite an insane feeling isn't it. I managed to score a girl a short while ago that literally wants to spend her life with me
And all I can think of is goddamnit I wish I was happy with you because you're the best I could ever hope for
No.298
>>297I absolutely adore my girlfriend, I just worry so much of fucking up. I genuinely love her so much, it's the first time I've been in a relationship with someone I'd actually consider my best friend. I'm just afraid of failure sometimes.
No.299
>>298Assuming you've been together a while, if you consider yourself so much of a fuckup wouldn't she know this by now
So either she knows and doesn't care or she doesn't know because it's not really true
Or third option you're very good at hiding how much of a fuckup you are which is kind of a contradiction in and of itself
No.300
>>299You've made me feel a lot better about myself, thank you. That calmed me down.
No.301
>>300wait really? lol cheers lade
I don't think it's possible to ever stop being anxious about the future but it's probably a good idea to never let it dictate your choices
No.303
>>302I had a presentation, and my sperg as just couldn't do it (I have a strong fear of cameras for some reason) and so I just made a slideshow and recorded my voice over it
got an A so I guess it worked
No.304
>>303lol I just pulled up my text on my second screen and pretty much read it out loud
No.305
>>304My prof is such a fucking idiot. She first wanted us to make "5 minutes worth of slides" which is totally subjective to how you read them + whether you're straight up reading off them.
Then she revises it to be a 5 minute long video presentation, and if we were to use slides we "cannot read anything off the slides, there must be a totally separate script"
In other words she just wanted to make this slightly harder because bird course. But yeah I did it the night of in an hour and ended up doing well so I don't care really kek
No.306
>>305lmao good for you
I will always fucking hate doing presentations especially if it's just for the sake of doing presentations
I get that it's all about the modern social skills scientist nowadays but god damn I couldn't care less personally it's not what I signed up for
No.307
>>306presentations and groupwork are the two things I absolutely despise in my classes
I'm in arts though, so it's to be expected
No.308
>>307lol same
what kinda studies do you do then
does it have theoretical things where you learn about history and stuff
do you focus on a specific branch like music or sculpting or is it just a little bit of everything
No.309
>>308My major is in political science. I actually have a job out of school with my old candidate, but he can't hire me without a degree
No.310
>>309wtf I don't understand so is it a major in polsci and a minor in arts? and that's allowed?
the major/minor system hasn't completely been implemented over here the same way it is with you guys so I'm a bit hazy on the details
and on top of all that you work as well lmao madlad
No.311
>>310?
Polisci is part of the arts faculty
No.312
>>311Ah I see. That sounds… weird but there's probably a good reasoning behind it
No.316
>>312Legal studies, psychology, sociology, anthropology, visual arts/film, political science, etc
anything that isn't science or math or engineering basically gets thrown into the arts faculty
No.317
>>316lol I just checked our uni just puts it in the faculty social sciences
altho looking at all our faculties maybe we have a few subcategories too many
No.318
>>317Oh, strange. Maybe Canada is just weird.
But yeah I was originally in law. It was absolute HELL. I'm good at it, but it takes so much effort.
No.328
>>324much to my surprise
but then again my brain isn't exactly built to be able to learn anything with real world applications
No.329
>>328polisci is about regurgitating liberal/left wing opinions and pretending you believe it, it's not that difficult or rooted in the real world tbh
at least, in Canada that's what it is
No.330
>>329lolwut okay
that doesn't exactly sound educational
I'd find it hard to believe if I heard it anywhere aside from firsthand
No.337
professor during web lecture very casually mentions 1/2 = 6 in the current mathematical framework we're working in
I feel like I may have missed something a while back
No.341
>>337wew lad yeah I loved when mine randomly mentioned the exam without giving us a date, I dug through old lectures and found him halfassedly mention it partway through that it's today
No.390
Wew lad, uni students are getting $1000 a month tax free. I might not die.
No.391
>>390gg mate
how do you normally pay for uni do you have a job on the side or smth
No.392
>>391usually I work for the summer, from home, and spend virtually none of the money I make until the summer's over. So during the summer itself I basically live poor and never buy shit.
Also >tfw this is tax free because even with free money I still won't have a high enough income to be taxed
No.393
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No.418
>>143>university is doing small classes in person>all my classes are small>dorms are open, and we're getting upgraded to single rooms for the price of a doublefuck, things are finally looking up